I'm glad I'm not alone however....

I'm not exactly sure where to start - 3.5 yrs ago I guess...that's when my psoriasis started behind my ears and then the weight gain....I am now approximately 55 pounds overweight - I'm 5'2" and almost 200#; I weighed less when I was 9 months pregnant with my daughter! Anyway, to say that stress brings this 'disease" to a head "using the term loosely" is an understatement however....if I had known stress could cause this much pain, debilitation, fear (of people seeing the skin "falling" from my head) or the open sores I would have done something then to take care of the stress (or before anyway). I've told at least 2 of my physicians so far and the insurance company that if I wasn't already on anti-depressants, I would be now due to this illness. What started behind my ears has gone from my scalp all the way town to my ankles including private areas. The weight gain has made it so that I can't even "TRY" to lose weight...I might lose 5 pounds but to no avail....I am totally miserable. I have not dated in almost 4 years and to be honest with you I feel nobody would want to date me anyway looking like this and I wouldn't want anyone to see me looking like this either. I'm not suicidal due to the medication I am taking however, believe me it has crossed my mind that it would be a lot easier to "not be here" but then I wouldn't have my beautiful granddaughters to look at every day! I have tried every topical, over the counter, under the counter (except for biologics) foams, homeopathic, hemoroid (sp?) treatments, calamine lotions, cortisone creams, gold bond creams, bag balms, you name it and nothing makes me feel any better. My family is continually telling me to "stop scratching grammie"! to which I reply back "you have no idea how this feels"! Sometimes I get angry because they do not know how I feel....and I would never wish this on my worst enemy. Nobody but NOBODY should have to live like this! EVER!