Ready for Stelara!!

AS long as i can remember i always had to deal with ezema, psoriasis, then PSA! As if life wasn't difficult enough with those, with simponi i developed pustular psoriasis. GREAT!!! thats all i needed!!! And it had to develop while i was getting married!!! Life is just lovely!!! So now all i remember about my most special days are that i was freaking tired all the time and cranky and just oh so tired that i dont remember how i got through those days!!! Well i didnt know why i was feeling that way and the doctors didnt help either. No one actually gave me any literature about simponi because they just gave it to me because i had been waiting for stelara which never seemed to come out as promised. So I had told the pharmacy which supplied my simponi that my psoriasis is getting worse the nurse told me that simponi has a paradox reaction! so i went along and continued my shots!!!! WEEEEEELLLL after two weeks of my wedding i couldnt even get up from bed, and I couldnt even get up to go to the doctor then they told me i have an infection...etc!! no one freakin knew what i really had at that point!!! all i knew was and still know that i cant freaking walk because of all the pain!!! they even started me on light therapy!!!! well after few weeks of pain and freakin antibiotics they figured out that i have pustular psoriasis!!!!!!!!!!! well i figured that out by the time they told me because of online research!!! after that i saw severa doctors, my dad even took me to Johns Hopkins!!!!! well they said the same thing as any other doctors!! and i have tried every medicine listed on the national psoriasis website!!!!!!! so now my next option is stelara...well by this time i turned 23 and cant be on my dads insurence and since i m so sick i had to quit work and my hubby is also an student so we both dont have insurence!!! so greatttttttttt!!! well finally i came accross another doctor at baylor irving, and she has been great help!!! she actually explains better and is much more down to earth!!! well i have been on methotrexate for 6 months now, and i will finally move onto stelara soon!!! Sooooo hopefully that will help with my psoriasis!! I am so tired of being this sick! I have changed soooooooo much in these 6 months!!! I almost feel as if i am going crazy!!! Its so difficult to do anything. the cycle keeps going on and on!!!! So i m ready for some new treatment!!! nothing has really worked for me so far! nothing!! so heres to Stelara!!!